Daze

Flashing beams do daze his feeble eyen - Spencer

Daze. It's what you get into the very next moment on receiving the nightmarish news you have been apprehensive about. It's the moment when you just realize that your dream will now only remain as a dream. A moment right when you hear the thud of your world crushing down. Thoughts, beliefs, judgments learnt through all those years of your life whirling in your mind, trying to tear it apart. 'Pick me, and act upon', they shout, but you do not know what to do. A moment when you get the first of many slaps from your father. It's a moment when your doctor calls to say tests were positive, a moment the new born doesn't cry and a moment when a mother gives her last advice. Crashing your new car or a loss of a limb leaves you dazed. A few sleepless nights, constant stress at work, lack of social life are enough for that feeling which stirs up a constant numbing pain in your brain. It also leaves you dazed when your life-partner calls it enough, while playing that game you reach to the final showdown only to lose your last virtual life. It takes away your breath.

It's a moment when you step out of that car with a thousand flashes in front of you. It's a moment when you lift the universally coveted award on the dais. The first sight of her, his first touch can be quite dazing. It's a moment when you realize the bullet missed you just by a whisker. It is on receiving your acceptance letter, on hearing that 'Yes', on hearing his first cry that can leave you dazed. It is a moment when you find the lost treasure of your childhood memories, a moment when you find a match to lit that last cigarette of the night or the moment of your first encounter with the hidden pleasures of this world. The happiness gives you an orgasmic high, that you are left with tears on your lids, heart throbbing hard against the wall and your palms sweaty and legs shaky. A jump in the air, a little gig, that glow on your face. It takes away your breath.

Heaven or Hell, wherever you may go, you are going to be dazed. Dazzling, isn't it.